~She~

Today is Monday 30 June 2008. Sitting on chair writing my blog. haha. so boring lazy to play games. now is 11/.25am. Today is my bou pui lui "Sweeet" birthday. Happy Birthday woh! haha. Day got message her liao. later sing must sing a birthday song to her. Yahoo! Finish working jor luh. No need to working liao. haha. Finish teaching those student. Now become very free. Sometimes thinking of future. What job i should be? Does i need to continue my study or not? Study what course? Mum ask me to take account but dad say me better go learn computer. Yay! I think computer more good cause i love computer. Haha. I think today i write this blog. To write down my feels on "she". Who is "She" leh? haha not my ex gf. But is another 1. In camps,ever tired ever bad mood when i saw her past my front or oppostite. I feel very happy. Why?! She not really pretty or cute. And as i know i only like small size girls. She tall... But "She" leave the camp earlier. That day i very sad and tears out. Heart like thousand knife cut off my body. -.-
"She" gone make me everyday feel bad mood not happy no spirit on all activity. I ask my friend go ask her number from her girl girl friends. I got it. I sms to her. She reply! haha. I'm happy. We both keep contact everyday when i get the hp sure will sms her and call her. On may8. "She" birthday... i say happy birthday to her. And that day is my most sadness day. Me break up with my girl friends Lisa... Actually i want to find "She" sms so i can feel more good. She say she busy... >.<"
Start that day till now she no sms with me. I dunno what happen and she looks like keep away with me. I ask her on msn why u no reply my msg. She say " i no received..."
Almost every weeks i got sms her but she doesnt reply me. I know maybe im bad or what. I know 我不配. In my life only got 2 girls who can make me when sing a song or hear song will thinking of them and miss them. First is ex gf Lisa we almost 3 years... second is "She". When i thinking of Lisa is hearing Li Sheng Jie song. If she...is Jay chou de 我不配. That day i got buy 2 litle turtle not real de lah. 1 to Hui Ling 1 to her... As her birthday gift on May8. Maybe late and on June7 Hui Ling back Selangor i got give 2 again the PLKN accesiories. 1 to "She" 1 to hui ling. But... i told Hui Ling that don't tell her that is me give it to her. Just say is Hui Ling buy. If she knw is me buy maybe will drop it or not be accept. I think in camp i only got talking with her 1 times only. At the side of medic TELEKOM there. That day i still remember tomorrow is 清明节. I want get this chance to write down my feels in my heart. Im sad now dont want to write more. Actually till now i still save all the msg she send to me. Sometimes when i read it i feel sad and disapointed with myself. haiz...Lastly i hope she always happy and healthy... maybe we both never contact but i know she always in my mind in my heart... Take care "She"